Oh!! Last night I had a star-studded dream extravaganza...it felt like anyone and everyone was in it ^o^ Bob Sparker was a big part of it, and so were the Bonanzas, and also F.A.N.G. from Street Fighter V was there?? Also I dreamt that I slipped into an alternate reality where Sega was still in the console wars and Microsoft had dropped out after the first Xbox was a huge flop.
I'm feeling a little better about things...I'm mostly just trying to concentrate on my own slice of the world right now. I'm trying to get back into getting a day job, so I've signed up as a tutor on some tutoring sites, but I haven't had any bites yet.
I also want to get back into creating more visual art--it feels like I haven't taken the opportunity to draw big pieces of art in a while. I have one that's in progress that I should work on, but every time I want to work on it, my brain goes "but what about this other thing you could be working on instead?" It's like a vicious cycle!
I guess the solution, then, is to partition out my time...and work on one project at a time, rotating, so that everything remains in its proper place. Whew. It sounds way easier said than done, though...I have a really hard time sticking to schedules even at the best of times, and lord knows this ain't the best of times.
The good news though is that my soulbonds are getting used to their new blog! I think they're really taking a shine to it! If they're happy and active, then it makes it easier for me to be more productive, too.
God, someone please let this nightmare end. I know that's a really abrupt tone shift from the past few entries, but I'd be lying if I said my life wasn't a constant ebb and flow of fear and distraction right now. I'm going to do my best, in the small ways that I can, to fight back against the dam-bursting bigotry this election's unleashed.
I want to help defend people...I want to protect them if I see something bad happening to them. I've been supporting and donating and signal boosting, and I'm lucky enough to live in a pretty tolerant area, but...I just want everyone to be okay.
Well, the bad news is it's Election Day and I'm in anxiety hell, but the good news is that SaGa Frontier 2 ended up emulating fine after all, so I guess it kind of evens out.
Actually, I'm still deeply in anxiety hell and I don't know when it's going to pass, but, well, there's only so much I can do about it. In the meantime, I'm definitely taking suggestions for RPGs or Zelda-like top-down hit-things-with-weapons games to play.
Video games note: lately I've been working my way through Dragon Warrior Monsters for the GBC, but after that (if I'm too burned out to play DWM2) I'm thinking of taking another stab at SaGa Frontier 2. Unfortunately, it doesn't emulate well for me, and I don't know where my old copy is, so I'll have to rustle one up around here.
Okay, I have to get this down quick before I forget. I had a wild dream last night...
I dreamt I had made, or was in the process of making, a video game. It was an RPG, very Earthbound or Mother-3-ish, where I (in the form of a giant sphere/moon) had descended upon an unspoiled world and rebuilt it to my liking. My lieutenant was Bob Sparker, still a game show host, who showed up intermittently to taunt and control the populace and the player.
Ultimately he was a pretty good guy, though, because he showed up in the final boss fight (against me) and kind of sadly confessed to the player that they weren't going to win but it would be great if they did, and also told them about "the window at the top of the world," where they could reach a new world through it. It's a very common thread in my dreams...
I think I'm going to try to make this game if I can.
Incidentally, I think I'd also like to develop my my soulbonds page more too...I'd really love to add a blog there, like this one, for everyone to use. I think Bob especially would get a kick out of it.